You know if you’re reading this maybe you’ll get me. I’ve dealt with this for so long now that I don’t even know where to begin and when it will end anymore.
My days are a constant battle I’ve evem contemplated not posting on here anymore because I don’t want to sound like a broken record talking about the same thing over and over again. I realize though that this is my life the only one I’ve got to dealt with so what am I doing wrong?
Am I talking too much about it instead of actually trying to get better?
Am I just stuck feeling sorry for myself?
Thing is I do try but I’m stuck in the lowest steps of this latter I’m on and of course I get frustrated and depress and the only outlet I have at the moment is this blog that I use as my journal.
Social Anxiety and Anxiety in general for me is like something that I feel will forever be a part of me and I don’t know how I feel about that all I know is that it gets me depress.
You see I don’t understand why I get so nervous around strangers when it comes to one on one situations. I don’t understand why I also feel it over the phone.
How can I live?
People tell me it’ll all get better but damn I didn’t know how hard this journey was going to be. I literally feel the safest just at home but how is that living?
Dear Social Anxiety,
I sincerely hate you F-U very much.