You know if you’re reading this maybe you’ll get me. I’ve dealt with this for so long now that I don’t even know where to begin and when it will end anymore.
My days are a constant battle I’ve evem contemplated not posting on here anymore because I don’t want to sound like a broken record talking about the same thing over and over again. I realize though that this is my life the only one I’ve got to dealt with so what am I doing wrong?
Am I talking too much about it instead of actually trying to get better?
Or
Am I just stuck feeling sorry for myself?
Thing is I do try but I’m stuck in the lowest steps of this latter I’m on and of course I get frustrated and depress and the only outlet I have at the moment is this blog that I use as my journal.
Social Anxiety and Anxiety in general for me is like something that I feel will forever be a part of me and I don’t know how I feel about that all I know is that it gets me depress.
You see I don’t understand why I get so nervous around strangers when it comes to one on one situations. I don’t understand why I also feel it over the phone.
How can I live?
People tell me it’ll all get better but damn I didn’t know how hard this journey was going to be. I literally feel the safest just at home but how is that living?
Dear Social Anxiety,
I sincerely hate you F-U very much.
love Wendy.
One of the greatest things in life, to me anyway is that anything can change in matter of seconds at any given time. And while that can seem depressing I find it a bit reassuring. Because anyones situation doesn’t have to be forever because naturally things change. With that being said I don’t think things change by themselves, little steps, changing routine, environment social circle, habits etc. But its never instant, as they say all good things come to those who wait. You shouldn’t worry about what you write, its YOUR blog afterall, and sometimes things aren’t sunshine and rainbows, everyone goes through things at some point.
In the end, things do get better, no they won’t do it themselves but you can do things so you’re on the right path. Any amount of growth is better than none, sometimes it takes alot of willpower to motivate yourself to get out of bed, maybe it may not seem like much but there are some who can’t even do that so be proud of what you do instead of dwelling on what you couldn’t today. 🙂
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is it too much if I say that you comment made me a bit teary eyed? I’m just an emotional wreck thirty-percent of the time….thanks for the motivating comment (keep count on my thank yous).
I guess I just have fear if that makes sense and it doesn’t help.
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Nope not bad tears just nice tears if that’s even a thing ? ? Yeah it sucks….
May I ask how old you are Brandon? If that’s not weird lol
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Turned 27 this past Jan.
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thanks although I didn’t want to turn 27….haha
anyway what was your blog about before? same thing as mine struggles of life?
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Not quite, I’d write advice posts o.o
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I should’ve known that
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since the comments you leave me are advice or positive thinking ones
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yeah and its nice that you take time tom comment so thanks.
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it’ll be nice if you had a blog so I could hit the follow and like actually know how you look like….jk that doesn’t matter but the blog thing yeah but like I always say thanks.
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what a picture? lol I was just kidding.
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I just realize that everyone can see our comment conversation they’re probably going to think I’m asking you for a picture….its just my sarcasm I swear I’m not a creep lol
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Were being watched :O:O:O
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can you even send private messages on here? I’m still a newbie haha
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well if anyone is reading our comment convo I swear I’m not a creep! haha
do you have any other social media?
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Facebook yes others I don’t use much
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Facebook is the one I don’t really like since everyone is too nosy there too much family trying to get the scoop on life haha
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you still use hotmail.com didn’t think that existed anymore…just teasing 😛
this is a bit weird (idk why) but maybe I will.
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It ended awhile ago but I never switched lol. And you don’t have to was just a suggestion 😛
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wordpress needs to get it together and have a private message button.
I think you can hit contact on my blog and message me there (just suggesting.) 😛
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got it!
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