This is a topic I’m usually able to just ignore because honestly I feel like there is nothing for me to bring at the moment let alone involve someone else in my messy adventure I’m still on.
Lately though that’s all I’ve been thinking about? Maybe it’s the fact that I admitted not so long ago that I’m lonely or maybe it’s the fact that now that my sister moved out I’m more alone than the usual and it lets me think more deeply without being interrupted.
Truth is I have absolutely no idea about dating? Honestly. That’s the truth because I’m twenty-seven years old dealing with social anxiety and even the thought of dating seems so unrealistic at this point.
How does one in this situation even get to a point of meeting someone? I know exactly what the other person would have to deal with if they dated me but would anyone even want too?
You know I wouldn’t mind having someone by my side right now just a partner for support or affection and this isn’t like some plea or post saying “yeah I’m single anyone out there interested?” haha<—I have to laugh at that. It’s just a topic I’ve been thinking about.
I guess because one of my fears is ending up alone, just because I need those moments alone doesn’t mean I want to be alone if that makes sense?
Nothing really makes sense huh?
I don’t even know what I’m writing anymore…..until next time.