So a pretty big thing happened over the weekend. Friday the 13th to be exact. I went on my first date yes I’m twenty-seven years old and up until then I’ve never actually been on a real date before, it shouldn’t be such a shocker but that’s the way the world makes it out to… Continue reading Social Anxiety: First Date
I don’t have many friends and the people that I consider my best friends are related to me it goes from my sister to my cousins. Though we share a lot of things about each other and I’m certain I can talk to them about anything there is still that fear and hesitation where I… Continue reading For The First Time
Lately I’ve put myself second in ways that I know I shouldn’t because it puts my progress if there was any at a standstill. I feel I do it on purpose at times because it gets me to not focus on myself for a minute in a twisted way that makes me happy because I’m… Continue reading I come first!
I always get praise for having such a good long term memory I can remember things from a long time ago with great detail. A compliment I suppose? but really I just have my social anxiety disorder to thank for this “quality” of mine. Half of the time I remember them because really I cannot… Continue reading Misunderstood
Today I woke up feeling very emotional with a hint of sadness I don’t know I managed to get through my morning but once the afternoon hit I just felt lonely, still feel lonely right now. This is what I’m still trying to understand and get use to about myself, emotions and mind. How I… Continue reading Sweet Creature
There is times I sit and think about the past, my past that is. As I sit in my room or in the living room alone with my thoughts I always tend to do that and think back about how things would have been if I had known what Social Anxiety was back when I… Continue reading The Captain Of My Fate.
I always have this debate with myself should I listen to my mind? follow my heart? My mind tells me these little lies, my heart tells me not to believe them but the way my stomach feels like it’s in knots I always end up believing my mind. Anxiety/Social Anxiety Those little lies are so… Continue reading Little Lies