It’s been a while since I’ve written about my feelings and journey it’s not that I don’t want too it’s just that I’ve been trying this new thing where I want to grown without having to think to much about social anxiety, depression etc. Not that I’m avoiding the situation or trying to pretend it… Continue reading Still Trying
I’ve hate to say that I’ve been doubting myself in more ways than one I keep asking what is my purpose? I feel like I’m living just to breath and honestly I feel that each breath I take is more valuable to someone else. I think for me having thoughts about why I am alive?… Continue reading Not In My Blood
My journey has been hard I got better but at the same time I feel like I haven’t taken much of leap. Have you ever felt disconnected? I’m around family most of my time siblings, parents, nephews, niece, cousins and the list goes on I’ve always been close to them and being around them has… Continue reading Issues All Over The Place
I know the feeling of disappointment well I’m an expert in expecting it and then letting it go because of this people classify me as strong because I don’t dwell and just move on. I don’t think they get that is not me being strong is just that I’ve learned to master the art of… Continue reading First Heartache
When it comes to how I view myself there’s always a battle of me not knowing exactly where I stand with myself. Social Anxiety makes me feel really insecure about who I am add depression into the mix and I’m just a walking contradiction of what other say they see in me me, what I… Continue reading Am I Worthy?
I’ve always said I deal with rejection more better than the common folk walking around. To explain this is that there is so much stuff in life that I rather not do or have to deal with that when the answer is no I don’t feel rejected I feel relieved. Yet of course it’s only… Continue reading Rejection
The overwhelming confusing way of feeling both happy and sad at the same time takes such a big toll on my body I don’t know how to explain it for others to understand. I guess when I feel happy I feel guilty about it because I’m just like “how can you feel happy when you… Continue reading Don’t Worry, I’m Here.
This time last year it was a freaking nightmare just thinking back on it I still get that sick feeling in my stomach and the sadness comes flowing back into my body and soul. I look around my house and see the Christmas decorations and our lit up Christmas tree looking so beautiful in red… Continue reading Depression: Update
I hate that I always have to be on time even if it means getting there or being ready two hours ahead. I hate that I get super annoyed when someone I’m waiting for isn’t on time. I hate that waiting for a text becomes a bigger issue than it should. I hate recognizing that… Continue reading I Hate….
I’ve been having some good weeks ever since October I’ve actually done a lot of things that I swore I could never do because that’s what my social anxiety thought me through out the last two decades of my life. I’ve made changes in my daily routine and I’ve been spending a lot of time… Continue reading Real Life: Complications